❤❤❤❤I'm in love again...❤❤❤❤
with life!
I'm in love with living, the sun on my skin and the wind in my hair. 💨🌞
I'm in love with wanting - to do anything, see everything, go anywhere🛩⛵🌍
There were a few months I didn't care for much of anything but to stay home, in yoga pants and a comfy shirt on the recliner or in bed for hours. Not because I was physically unable, but because I was emotionally spent. I'm sure I'm not the only woman to feel this way. It was an equivalent to post partum depression.
I didn't want to leave the comfort of my home, where no one can tell me all of the wrong I do or my way of thinking or acting was wrong.
where my tears could fall daily and no one cared. I could sit in silence and do nothing but cry.
I was in a bad place - my mind was not at ease.
BUT
Now I'm in love with living again
I want to do things, I want to get out of bed and move around more than I did or didn't actually.
I do not cry or feel super sorry for myself.
I am feeling so much better !!
Its all in the drugs.... Not the bad illegal or abusive kind... But the good prescription, chemical altering kind. I never wanted to get back on that kinda med, but I was literally done! It was bad and I didn't like myself at all. Now I am OK with taking a pill to help me feel better. People think depression is literally just a feeling, that a person chooses to feel that way. I would never WANT to feel like nothing mattered but laying around hating life. I despised feeling that way but no matter what I did, I couldn't shake it.
I love my little family and our little life.
***Not anymore***
Although I am still not 100% happy with my job or career choice, I don't detest it. I don't walk around hating it or wanting to find something else. I do know that I do not want to it forever but for now its OK.
So thank you lexapro for bringing me back to being in love!
